It's late, so I'm not going to edit this,

but I haven't heard from you in a while.
I miss you.
It's the new year, and I'm excited. I'm starting over. With everything.
I'd like to be HAPPY, for once. And for a while.

I spent it with the boys, i was home at 1130, and i stayed awake until four.
I woke at about seven.

I work tomorrow. Brittany's home, so I guess I'm going to see her after I get off.
I wish i knew what time you'd be back sunday.
I could make sure all my homework was done before then.

I dyed my hair. You know, something different. New year, new person, new hair.
Everything should change, eventully, but I'm going to take slow steps.

I'd like to think that I've changed in your almost two week absence.
You'll be able to tell me if I have.

I broke my phone. I now have this old brick that i dont like using too much.
You remember how I told you that i NEVER want to be dependent on something?
Yeah. I was. On my phone.
I'm going to try to make that never happen again.
My phone, the internet, a person.
Those three.
Hold me to it?

Anyways, i work in twelve hours, so I'm going to log off.
Gimme a call when you read this.
I'll be on the phone with Paul, if he hears the ring, and then I'll be reading Abarat.
So I wont be reading until the end of part one, which is another seventy pages.

But until then, goodnight.
I love you, I miss you.
-Brie

grrawr

so, my birthday was the 29th.
it was freeking amazing.

David sent his shirt.
and skylar gave me RockBand.
its amazing.

and i really should work on chapter four of my book.
so, yeah...
whatever.

OH-i was at a party yesterday, drove in amazing italian cars.
freeking amazing.

two weeks LATER

wow. its been two weeks too long.

haha, this is my last week of summerschool
(easy but BORING)
and my birthday is in eight days.
pretty chill, dont you think?

okay, so, lets see...
David was at camp last week, i missed him.
i got in a fight with his exgirlfriend. she needs to get a life.
Nicki gave me some of her music. i now have a list of new favorite songs.
Nicki and i are currently not talking.
i hope she'll get over it.
welcome to PMSing. it sucks.

OH-before i forget, theres a new "david-osiphy" (yeah, stupid, i know)
if whomever doesnt want to talk to me again, and sure, it wasnt my fault, but i cant change the way Their mind thinks.its something i just have to get over with and move on.
(talking about breakups, much)

okay, so, thats it really for now.
so, yeah.
OH, go check out my other blogspot.
all my writing is there.

createbrie.blogspot.com

live in colour

so, i'm hungry.
its been a week since i've said anything, so thought i'd catch whomever, myself, up.

i spent the fourth at Styles house. her sister-in-laws mother lives next door to the Italian Mafia.
it was the greatest thing ever.
and my fifth grade teacher was there.
odd, much?

i've spent a while just writing, and writing... and writing.
its quite a habit now.

i;ve fought with my brother.
i've watched harry potter AGAIN for the twentieth time.
and i've watched Get Smart.
go see taht movie.

i havent seen Wall-e yet.
i want to.

OH, and newfavorite piano song: Cristafori's Dream
greatest thing ever.

okay... i think thats it.
go check out my other blog, yeah?
createbrie.blogspot.com


OH, and the title, thought i'd throw that at you.
David and I were talking the other day, and i realized that maybe things arent all black and white.
theres no ONE WAY. theres no one path
theres a mixture of things.
like... abortion.
theres certain ways i'm against it
and theres certain ways i'm for it.
it takes forever to explain.

but there you go, COLOUR.

It Will Be Alright

and i know it. hahaha
so, i was watching this video.
and it made me SMILE.
it makes me think that there is potential for happiness.
and i loved it.
http://www.wherethehellismatt.com/videos.shtml?fbid=KLReb

because it wont let me post it (or i'm just stupid like that)

so, friday was the last day of VBS, and Nicki, Brittany and i went to the beach
then rode the train whereever it took us.
and WROTE.
it was great.

andi got shinsplints.

and then yesterday i went to the SDfair. and played RockBand.
you should. it was GREAT.

and it didnt help my shinsplints.
boo.

favorite two new bands: Jamestown Story; One Star Story
they're great. check them out?

okay... not much else to say.
except i'm going to go play the new Spiro now.
<3

welcome SCREWUPS.

so, i just finished my Health, forEVER.
thank GOD. that class was MURDER.

my mum and Bro just walked in the door about 40 minutes ago
now alli have to do is make it to friday.
Nicki, Sabi and I are going to the BEACH to write.

you should hook up with us there.
hahahaha, or not.

we're all in the middle of a series, and mine is the most... it needs more help then theirs does.
lets just leave it at that.

and i guess the 5th of July theres this Drum Corps thing going on at Stanford that Davids going to.
and i'm a TOTAL band groupie, and i call good music "pretty", and this music, is completely BEAUTIFUL.
yes, that means i want to go. but it also means i might have to be left out of this spending-the-night thing for Funsized's birthday.

IF i have the chance to go to this DCI thing, i'm so So SO there. but, i doubt it.
poop.


and i was thinking today, its been EXACTLY a month since i saw david for the first time since eighth grade, and exactly a week since i saw him last.
i wanna know how we pulled it off.

hahaha
whatever.
its pretty chill.

now, i bet you're wondering about this title of mine.
welcome SCREWUPS.
thats me.
i always say "welcome to my life"
and most recently, i realized i say that about things that are messed up
and i;m usually saying it to messed up people (all my friends, really. i mean, come on, we;re teenagers)
and so i realized, all i'm really saying is that.

and yeah.

i dunno, being random.
<3
out, loves.

Wake me up in COLOUR

i've had this movie line stuck in my head for a while, something about finally realizing that MAYBE the world was just black and white... (ELIZABETH TOWN) and i realized that maybe it is. maybe that line is true. but if it is, we can MAKE our own colour.
just like colour pictures started off as black and white.

i dont know, maybe the music is getting to me.

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day three of just my dad and me. Mum and Skylar come home tomorrow afternoon/night and i CANT CANT CANT wait. i missed them.
and i just cant really take it anymore.

its not like we've fought too much (we have, but nothing BIG... yet) i just dont really get along with him.

most people dont get along with their parents, but i dunno. maybe this is different. i've never heard anyone act like me around their father like i act around mine.

whatever.

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welcome to finding out about me.
i have another blog
where all my stories are at.

createbrie.blogspot.com

its just all my writing.
i found out yesterday that i have 30 stories.
i was waiting for 20 before i wrote a few CHAPTERS to send into get published.
i've drempt about this for years.

but do i REALLY want the world knowing how my mind works?
and its GOT to be different then just blogging.
its actual ENGLISH freaks looking at it, and picking it apart.

do i want that?

yes. i do. i want to see my name printed across a book.

but, still...
i dont know.
i dont want my mother knowing how my mind works.
i dont want the WORLD knowing that my mind works the way it does.

but i LOVE the reactions i get.

maybe i can ask mum what she thinks.
'cause i dont know if i brought it up with David.
but i'll do that tonight too.

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haha, i talked to him last night.
i kinda enjoy our conversations.

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AND JUST FOR THE RECORD: piano christmas music in June is the BEST THING EVER.

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and it still needs to POUR in San Diego.